So while out doing some Christmas shopping yesterday it occurred to me that it would be a good idea to stop for late lunch and margaritas. So 2 margaritas later it's time to pick up my daughter. Called her and said I wasn't feeling very good, etc... So she decided to stay at her Grandmother's. So onto another restuarant for more drinks. Had a guy friend join me at some point but then he was gone. I was talking to some other guy. Just flashes from the rest of the night. I remember 3 different bars, the police showing up at one because I obviously forgot to pay my tab at the restuarant so I got an escort to go pay it. Remember trying to unlock my door when I got home, I was so drunk I couldn't find the key or make it work or something. So I got in the car to try and sleep. Woke up at some point and could unlock the door. Went to bed, called in sick, and spent the day in bed.
Really??? I could be really hurt or really get in trouble. WHY? I can't keep doing this. It always leads to too much. Always! I have to be done or I'm gonna die. I don't wanna die. I have to go back to AA and stay away from alcohol. I've done it before and can do it again. One day at a time.
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Really??? I could be really hurt or really get in trouble. WHY? I can't keep doing this. It always leads to too much. Always! I have to be done or I'm gonna die. I don't wanna die. I have to go back to AA and stay away from alcohol. I've done it before and can do it again. One day at a time.
Day 1
Give yourself plenty of rest and water so you can flush out and be feeling better. Here's thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteCunning, powerful and baffling. Glad you're alright. I can relate to the black outs. I remember in Lit, Mary Carr wrote about blacking out like she would find herself suddenly in a situation as if poured out of a bucket. It's crazy stuff, isn't it?
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