Sober weekend

On day 4. I made it through Friday and Saturday without drinking. I've been attending meetings everyday. I saw an old friend at the women's meeting Friday. I was embarrassed at first. Then I realized she was there for the same reason I was.  We had coffee yesterday and I think we are really going to be able to help each other. We are both in early sobriety. This is her first time in the program.

I am talking tonight on The Bubble Hour. About my experience at rehab. I'm not really nervous. I hope my experience can help someone else.

A friend texted me last night and asked me to get a drink today. Now I have to tell her I'm not drinking. Again? is what I'm afraid she's going to think. I know what others think of me is none of my business but still at this point bothers me some. But I have to tell her...

So far so good. Some cravings but nothing too bad.

Starting over again

So the last few months have been spent drinking and I have gained nothing but some extra weight. So I'm back on the wagon. Today is day one for me. I am taking antabuse to help me not drink. I know a lot of people may not agree with that but it has helped me some in the past so I'm willing to try it again.

I'm returning to AA. I went to a meeting today. Everyone was nice and welcomed me back. Tomorrow I will go to my women's meeting and hope everything goes as smoothly as today's meeting did. I have my sponsor back.

I want to work the program for real this time. I want to get better. My drinking gives me nothing really but some brief comfort. I fear losing my friends, dread having to say no to drinks with them. I am not sure how to be me without alcohol. But I plan to find out.

Life is out there for me to join. I plan to jump in with two feet!