Not sure...

So I really had to count my days cause I wasn't sure...I'm trying not to focus so much on them. But it is day 13. Almost 2 weeks without a drink. I haven't been to a meeting since last Thursday. Friday I hibernated and this week I have used the work excuse, which isn't really an excuse because I do need to be at work and not be gone for an hour either in the morning or at noon. Last night I used the homework excuse. This is the last week of my semester and I did have 2 papers to write and a final to study for. I did finish one paper and finished the other this afternoon but I could have gone to the meeting. I just didn't want to. Again, I wanted to hibernate. I haven't been to the gym at all this week or done a run. I cancelled my training session on Monday afternoon due to something that happpened at work. My supervisor sent a "threatening" email, not just to me but to the staff as a whole. I hate the way she communicates and if I'm honest I am guilty of some of the things she talked about. So I felt awful. I felt mad and sad. I texted my trainer and rescheduled for Friday, which I am dreading already, and left work at 1:30 and came home and cried and took a nap. I should have gone to the gym yesterday and today but just wanted to get home and stay here.

I have been feeling anxious, depressed, not good mentally. I made an appointment with a psychologist for tomorrow at 2:00. I don't know what else to try. I've been doing AA (well not this week), taking meds prescribed by my doctor and a psychiatrist, praying, working on the steps with my sponsor, etc. So I will now try the therapy route as well. I guess maybe all this is normal when getting sober. I just don't like the way I feel. I feel fearful and don't want to leave the house, which I know is not healthy. I haven't been to meetings this week because of my anxiety or whatever it is. So hopefully this will pass quickly.